darth_flanders (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} darth_flanders) wrote,@ 2007-10-24 21:37:00 |
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Mid Life
Work... what can I say about work?
Work sucks.
Work... what can I say about work?
I think I'm having my midlife crisis. I have no heart for this anymore. I thought I could continue because I had good things happening otherwise to me. But I keep waking up dreading going to work. Not a good sensation. I'm not connecting with the kids and... I don't care anymore. I hope this feeling will pass but it's been steady for three days now.
If I had some fulfillment teaching the kids I could deal with the deranged people on staff. But the kids do not want to learn. I've tried everything I still reach maybe four of them at a time. I'm tired of being treated as irrelevant. I feel like a damned fraud. I can't get first graders to fall in line. I found out my colleagues feel that way at least once a week. I don't think anyone went on feeling it three days straight.
When parents won't send their kids to school on time with supplies and return notices what the hell do they expect us teachers to do?
My supervisor gave me a lecture because one child came into my early tutoring session out of seven. She told me to grab any other six to meet department goals. Am I responsible legally for the other kids until the start of the school day officially? Does my contract specify I have to do this? I never hid behind my contract but when you can be written up for missing one trivial mandated poster up on your wall I find myself unsupported and unwilling to give any further support to this school.
I was berated because too many kids in my class were not going on a trip today. Never mind I had the others safely placed with my colleagues. The other teachers going on the trip were told to take my students while I stayed behind with the kids who couldn't go. The teachers refused because they did not know my kids and who would behave or not. My administrator sprung this on me last minute and berated me for not telling her what was really going on. This after I gave her a complete write up of who was with who.
Oh she said I didn't have a list of library books on my wall also. Obviously if you haven't got all the mandated charts up you aren't teaching.
If I had some fulfillment teaching the kids I could deal with the deranged people on staff. But the kids do not want to learn. I've tried everything I still reach maybe four of them at a time. I'm tired of being treated as irrelevant. I feel like a damned fraud. I can't get first graders to fall in line. I found out my colleagues feel that way at least once a week. I don't think anyone went on feeling it three days straight.
When parents won't send their kids to school on time with supplies and return notices what the hell do they expect us teachers to do?
My supervisor gave me a lecture because one child came into my early tutoring session out of seven. She told me to grab any other six to meet department goals. Am I responsible legally for the other kids until the start of the school day officially? Does my contract specify I have to do this? I never hid behind my contract but when you can be written up for missing one trivial mandated poster up on your wall I find myself unsupported and unwilling to give any further support to this school.
I was berated because too many kids in my class were not going on a trip today. Never mind I had the others safely placed with my colleagues. The other teachers going on the trip were told to take my students while I stayed behind with the kids who couldn't go. The teachers refused because they did not know my kids and who would behave or not. My administrator sprung this on me last minute and berated me for not telling her what was really going on. This after I gave her a complete write up of who was with who.
Oh she said I didn't have a list of library books on my wall also. Obviously if you haven't got all the mandated charts up you aren't teaching.
Work sucks.
